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Headache – Vince Holland was 28 years old when headaches he had been managing with over-the-counter painkillers turned out to be much more sinister than he could ever imagine.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Highlights:<\/p>\n

03:40 Stroke in the 4th of July
\n11:45 Reversible Cerebro Vasoconstriction Syndrome
\n23:47 Stroke Awareness
\n27:35 Acceptance after having a stroke
\n31:09 Importance of community in stroke recovery
\n34:57 Emotional struggle after stroke
\n44:18 Physical and mental deficits caused by stroke
\n51:00 Plans for the future<\/p>\n

Transcript:<\/p>\n

Bill 0:00
\nYour mindset is a really important thing. And if you’re not somebody who’s used to having a positive mindset, it’s probably easy to go into those darker spaces. Even if you do have a good mindset, and you always have had like it’s possible to go to a darker space because you’re in uncharted territory.<\/p>\n

Bill 0:18
\nAnd, you know, you have to contemplate things quickly about what the future is like. And I don’t know about you, but I started to wonder about being able to provide for my family being around for my children being alive next week.<\/p>\n

Intro 0:37
\nThis Is recovery after a stroke with Bill Gasiamis. Helping you go from where you are to where you’d rather be.<\/p>\n

Bill 0:45
\nBill from recoveryafterstroke.com. This is Episode 81 and my guest today is Vince Holland. Vince was 28 when he experienced a stroke three years before this interview on the Fourth of July and from the outside he was the picture of health, Vince had several days of symptoms that he ignored and tried to manage the headache with over-the-counter painkillers.<\/p>\n

Bill 1:10
\nJust before we get started, I wanted to share with you that a few weeks ago, I launched the recovery after stroke coaching. The people who have signed up and are now being coached by me and are being helped to overcome challenges including fatigue, anger, isolation, amongst other things.<\/p>\n

Bill 1:27
\nFor the 12 months of access, they paid only 149 US dollars. So if you’re a stroke survivor who wants to know how to heal your brain, overcome fatigue, and reduce anxiety, recovery after stroke coaching might be for you. If you have fallen in the cracks between hospital and home care and desire to gain momentum in your recovery, but did not know where to start.<\/p>\n

Bill 1:49
\nThis is where I can help. I will coach you and help you gain clarity on where you are currently in your recovery journey. I will help you create a picture of where you would like to be in your recovery 12 months from now, and I will coach you to overcome what’s stopping you from getting to your goal.<\/p>\n

Bill 2:07
\nDuring coaching, I will also teach you the 10 steps to brain health for stroke survivors and guide you through each step with supporting interviews from experts and information that is based on the latest scientific research.<\/p>\n

Bill 2:19
\nIf you’re one of the first 10 people to join recovery after stroke coaching, you will get a one-on-one private coaching thread with access to the course 10 Steps to Brain Health for Stroke Survivors when released access to members-only monthly group training calls and access to the stroke survivors’ private forum.<\/p>\n

Bill 2:38
\nThe first 10 people to join also get more than 70% off the full price of 599 and 12 months of access will only cost you 149 US dollars per year. be one of the first 10 people who apply for recovery after stroke coaching now and get the first seven days free.<\/p>\n

Bill 2:56
\nAfter the seven-day free trial you’ll pay the annual amount of only $149 and the price of renewal will never increase for as many years that you stay a member. Once the first team coaching packages are sold, the price will never be offered again.<\/p>\n

Bill 3:12
\nSo take advantage of the seven-day free trial now by clicking the link below if you’re watching on YouTube, or by going to recoveryafterstroke.com\/coaching, if you are listening online, Now it’s on with the show. Vince Holland, welcome to the podcast.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>3:28
\nHow are you doing Bill?<\/p>\n

Bill 3:29
\nDoing good, mate. Thank you for being here. I appreciate it from Virginia to the United States of America. Tell me Vince a little bit about what happened to you.<\/p>\n

Stroke on the 4th of July<\/h3>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>3:40
\nWell, my stroke was three years ago on the Fourth of July and that’s an American, that’s our Independence Day. So I was with friends, getting to celebrate having dinner, and going to see fireworks and I just kind of came out of the pretty wild blue.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>3:56
\n28 years old at the time pretty fit, living an active lifestyle, and kind of doing all the things that they say you should do to minimize your risk. And so it still happened.<\/p>\n

Bill 4:08
\nWhat particular, exactly did you notice leading up to the stroke? Did you have any awareness that maybe something was off?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>4:17
\nI think on the day, I mean, things were going on a few weeks before that, only in hindsight, do I look at and think, okay, maybe these are some indicators, the persistent headaches and things were a little bit off.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>4:28
\nBut the day was completely normal until that evening when I was sitting in my parent’s kitchen, and then my legs started to get heavy and then the sensation started to dull and they felt like they were just filled with sand. By the time I would stand up, they’d just disappeared and I’d just splayed out my parents’ kitchen floor.<\/p>\n

Bill 4:46
\nWow, so the headaches were something like were they severe were they something that you would think, man, something’s not right or did they stop you from doing anything like going to work or just being your regular self?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>5:00
\nThey’re pretty close to migraine level, like if I didn’t catch them early enough and take some kind of over-the-counter medication it would be terrible to try and deal with those headaches or to do with loud noises.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>5:12
\nI mean, they were pretty close to the migraine level. And again, as I said, in hindsight, it seems so crazy that I was just thinking, Well, you know, take a couple of Tylenol, you kind of just go on about your business. But they were pretty intense.<\/p>\n

Bill 5:27
\nYeah. Did you go to the hospital at that time?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>5:29
\nI didn’t. There was, I think what I now realize that was probably the Tia before my stroke, and I was actually out doing a competition. And we ended up speaking of the EMS and they took vitals and everything like that. But I remember my senses being so fried like everything seemed backwards and distant.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>5:56
\nAnother time I thought, I’m just exhausted like this is extreme fatigue. This might be a heatstroke in the worst-case scenario, but I just need to get hydrated and make sure my vitals are fine. And I went on my way, I didn’t even go to the hospital that time a few weeks before my stroke.<\/p>\n

Bill 6:12
\nWhat sort of a competition Were you involved in?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>6:15
\nIt’s like the functional fitness, very fitness kind of things it’s kind of like a CrossFit style. But on a local scale. They host some different things in Washington, DC, so we’re out there doing that, working hard doing strenuous stuff.<\/p>\n

Bill 6:29
\nYou see somebody who’s fit, you know, perhaps they’ve got muscles or they lean or they’re an athlete or they run and externally everyone sees them and goes, well they’re the picture of health everything looks great. But the reality is we don’t know what’s going on on the inside.<\/p>\n

Bill 6:44
\nAnd of course, being fit probably did help you being active helped you all those things, helped you in your recovery, and helped you be in a really good place to I suppose experience something dramatic in your health, but we often judge a book by its cover.<\/p>\n

Bill 7:05
\nWe look at it, everything looks great. It’s one of those challenges that people live with after a stroke is there. Well, you look good man you look good, But then there’s so much stuff going on on the inside where people may look good on the outside.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>7:18
\nYeah, you look so normal. I mean, that still goes on, you know, once you’re, once you’ve had the stroke, and you’re in recovery, but you still deal with so many invisible parts of it.<\/p>\n

Bill 7:30
\nAnd I imagine in your industry, slash hobby, whatever it is, when you guys put so much effort into being physically fit and looking well, going back into that space into that zone, they’ve had something so dramatic as a stroke, people will look at you and go, man, he’s back. You know, we’ve got him back and he’s doing all the things. Surely he’ll be able to just be the same, Vince that he always was.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>7:56
\nRight? Yeah, there’s that feeling and it kind of challenges, It’s part of I say the challenges is the challenge on your identity like your sense of self gets wounded too because you sort of think of yourself as the things that you can do like not just the whole of who you are, but the things that you can do.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>8:14
\nAnd when that goes away, once you’ve had a stroke, you end up with questions like, Am I still? Am I still me? Am I still Vince like, The idea of who I am was damaged. And it takes a lot of emotional healing through our recovery, to understand that the reality of who you are is still there.<\/p>\n

Bill 8:32
\nYeah. So you’re 28 were you in a relationship? Do you have a family what was happening at home?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>8:40
\nYep. 28 years old at the time of my stroke, and I was in a relationship with my then girlfriend who’s now my fiance. So we are still living together in Northern Virginia. And I was fortunate to be with my family just a few miles from the hospital at the time and my brother is a corpsman in the Navy.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>9:01
\nAnd my mom was she used to be a nurse. And so I think they knew the signs. And so my brother kind of put me through the fast protocol right away. So I was fortunate. He didn’t panic. And so I think I was able to stay pretty even emotionally at the time I didn’t. He stayed calm, and I think it helped me to stay calm. And then they call 911, might be 999, in some other countries.<\/p>\n

Bill 9:23
\n000 in Australia.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>9:25
\nYeah. And that’s one of the best things that you can do for someone that you think might be having a stroke is to have that first response team there because they can begin to triage work on the bus on the way over to the hospital.<\/p>\n

Bill 9:41
\nAnd so you’ve collapsed at home. They called the ambulance and you were taken to hospital. Immediately. They were suspected of a stroke. So they treated you as a stroke patient on the way there and when you got there, or were there any other challenges that you had to go through trying to work out what happened to you?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>10:03
\nI think in the ambulance, they just weren’t sure. And they wanted to do all the vitals and get some information about me. But they didn’t have an idea, I don’t think, and not until I got to the hospital. And they ran the talk screenings to make sure that I didn’t have anything illicit in my system.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>10:20
\nThey even did different imaging, they did the TEE, put the tube down your throat, and took a picture of your heart from behind. They do the CAT scan, a kind of Doppler test. So they want all these different kinds of imaging and tests to know what it was for sure.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>10:37
\nBut I got there and what they say is like a critical three-hour window for someone having an ischemic stroke, so I was able to get TPA. And that made a tremendous difference over just the first 6, 12, 18 hours.<\/p>\n

Bill 10:53
\nSo did you end up finding out what was behind the clot that occurred? Was that an ischemic stroke caused by a clot?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>11:04
\nIt was. And I think that’s why the TPA responded so well because we were able to bring up that clot. And then they were having questions about, well, what caused the clot? Is there a malformation in your heart? And is there some kind of congenital malformation in the brain with the blood vessels?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>11:22
\nSo we did get to go on and do additional tests. I went to a second hospital that same evening, and from there was would be discharged to rehab. But there were just several tests after that. angiogram and still more imaging, but never did they determine what caused the clot to pass to my brain so they just categorized it as a cryptogenic stroke.<\/p>\n

Reversible Cerebro Vasoconstriction Syndrome<\/h3>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>11:45
\nAnd what we got to do with my neurology team was to narrow down some of the symptoms and we started a course of treatment as if it were based on ribs and as Reversible Cerebro Vasoconstriction Syndrome. And so we took steps to address that. And it’s been working for me.<\/p>\n

Bill 12:07
\nSo you wake up in the hospital, where you are lucid? Did you have any idea of what was happening? Or had you completely blacked out?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>12:15
\nI’d stayed conscious the entire time, which is part of what made it so surreal. And I think in the beginning, I never wanted to say I knew that I had some suspicion, but I never wanted to say I had a stroke until the doctor came in.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>12:29
\nI think it was the nurse first who was talking to me and she said, Do you know where you are? And they ask all the cognitive questions they can think of, you know, your age, and who’s the president, where do you live? And do you know why you’re here?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>12:44
\nAnd I kind of hesitated and she went because you had a stroke. And like, hearing the words externally, it kind of all fell on my shoulders at once. And then I had a whole new set of questions just wondering about what stroke recovery meant because I just had no idea.<\/p>\n

Bill 13:03
\nYeah, you will have no idea what stroke recovery means because at 28 you probably never met anyone who had a stroke. And even if you did, if you were like me, I was 37. But even if you did meet someone who had a stroke, you didn’t understand what it all meant for that person, how they ended up being that way, or what their challenges were You just think of stroke as something that happens to all the people. That’s what I thought did you have any experience with stroke before your experience?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>13:34
\nWith like, older people I know and I think a relative that has had a stroke, but I didn’t get to experience it or understand it up close. It wasn’t until I had my stroke that I started to dig into how many people it affects worldwide, and what some of the symptoms, the signs, and the deficits that people live with. Or the disabilities like after having had a stroke. So it was definitely like it was a ground for me.<\/p>\n

Bill 14:00
\nYeah. I know that in Australia and perhaps worldwide that was speaking about one in six people will experience a stroke in their lifetime. And now I’m seeing the literature has changed and they’re talking about one in four people. That is a massive amount of people that’s 25% of the world’s population going to experience a stroke in their lifetime.<\/p>\n

Bill 14:23
\nAnd it’s alarming that there’s not enough known about it, it’s such an unknown thing. And there’s such a stigma around stroke. It’s bizarre. That’s what kind of motivated me to get these podcasts out. What were you doing other than being in a committed relationship and just being a regular going to the gym, all that kind of stuff? Were you working? were you doing all that type of thing you did You have just your regular daily tasks that you needed to do every day.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>14:52
\nI was I was working. I had a nine-to-five. And I think it was because I also had a second job I was delivering pizzas. So in the evenings and weekends. And like, I think I was kind of burning the candle at both ends, so to speak, just not resting enough, having these long, long days I work, I get to work early, some days sleep late and then go into a second shift.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>15:15
\nAnd I don’t know, I just wasn’t prioritizing time for checking in with myself and taking care of what was going on. So I was leading the normal life nine to five working but maybe didn’t have as much of a priority on my overall health as I could have. My Fitness was a priority. But you know, at 28 you just go in and you don’t always stop to think about what could go wrong or how you can try and minimize certain risks.<\/p>\n

Bill 15:47
\nHow many hours were you spending at the gym<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>15:52
\nAt least an hour a day for the most part five or six days a week, and then sometimes a little more than an hour on Saturdays it’d be like an extended day of training for me. So I would say, at least nine or 10 hours a week.<\/p>\n

Bill 16:08
\nWell, were you preparing for any particular event? Or is it just something that you love doing?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>16:15
\nTowards like, when we do like an event, or a trial run or some kind of a competition and fitness sort of competition, I might spend a little more time at the gym. I guess around the time of my stroke it was not too far removed from that last competition.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>16:30
\nAnd at that point, I got just so set on being at that level of fitness. I was spending time in the gym to maintain that. Maybe that sense of identity was part of who I was, to be a certain strong level of strong and fit and fast and that was something that I was attached to.<\/p>\n

Bill 16:50
\nYeah, well, man. So how about an identity shift after that like, what did you wake up with? You got You woke up they treated you with a TPA. On some sort of a path of understanding what happened and what comes next.<\/p>\n

Bill 17:04
\nSo, how did you wake up? What did you notice that was different in your body?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>17:08
\nThe TPA kicked in the first six hours. And like, initially, my left side was just nonfunctional. But my left arm could start to lift, and it took days to even get my toes moved on my left leg, but it was just extreme weakness. On my left side, left my left hand. My speech was affected. It was super delayed, I could talk, but I would hear people say words, and when I would go to reply, it felt like I just wanted to get the words out, but they weren’t there.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>17:35
\nEverything was just so delayed. And there are some, some dark times, like when you go to rehab, and you can’t physically work out anymore, you’re completely exhausted, but you have so much time to think and to try and examine the experience and ask yourself what if I don’t get better? Like how do I feel about myself if this new of these deficits is part of my life permanently?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>17:58
\nSo it’s, it’s taught me a lot about being empathetic to other people’s struggles and recognizing like, people are going through some very, very difficult things. And our minds can make them more bearable or just much more difficult to try and pull ourselves through.<\/p>\n

Intro 18:18
\nIf you’ve had a stroke, and are in recovery, you’ll know what a scary and confusing time it can be, You’re likely to have a lot of questions going through your mind. Like, how long will it take to recover? Will I recover? What things should I avoid? In case I make matters worse, doctors will explain things.<\/p>\n

Intro 18:37
\nBut, because you’ve never had a stroke before, you probably don’t know what questions to ask. If this is you, you may be missing out on doing things that could help speed up your recovery. If you’re finding yourself in that situation, stop worrying, and head to recoveryafterstroke.com<\/a>, where you can download a guide that will help you.<\/p>\n

Intro 18:57
\nIt’s called Seven Questions to Ask Your Doctor about Your Stroke. These seven questions are the ones Bill wished he’d asked when he was recovering from a stroke. They’ll not only help you better understand your condition, they’ll help you take a more active role in your recovery. head to the website now, recoveryafterstroke.com and download the guide. It’s free.<\/p>\n

Bill 19:31
\nYour mindset is a really important thing. And if you’re not somebody who’s used to having a positive mindset, it’s probably easy to go into those darker spaces. Even if you do have a good mindset, and you always have had one, it’s possible to go to a darker space because you’re in uncharted territory.<\/p>\n

Bill 19:50
\nAnd, you know, you have to contemplate things quickly about what the future is like. And I don’t know about you But I started to wonder about being able to provide for my family being around for my children being alive next week.<\/p>\n

Bill 20:07
\nYou know, all those sorts of things. You wake up with issues on the left side not being able to speak the things that are experienced early on as well. How did those things start to resolve themselves? When you’re in rehab? What did you need to go through to get that stuff sorted?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>20:23
\nI think the speech pathologist that there, I spent the least amount of my time because things started to come back together. As for my speech, it was like occupational therapy and physical therapy, just trying to navigate They had like a mock kitchen setup, just trying to get me comfortable, what would be like a living space, and just trying to show me how I could navigate at the time being in that wheelchair.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>20:50
\nAnd that meant having a tough conversation with my charge nurse about my goals for rehab. And what assist tools I would be using and how that could impact my life after that, of course, there were those questions like, what will this do in my relationship?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>21:07
\nWho am I now, I was starting to get the idea that I was going to work as hard as I could intelligently and safely and always listen to my therapist. I was going to work as hard as I could to get my sense of independence back.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>21:21
\nBut I just didn’t know what kind of challenges I was going to put in my relationship. Like, My fiancee and I were super close, but I had never experienced anything like it. And so I wondered, What must she be thinking? I knew my family must be a little bit afraid and concerned.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>21:42
\nA lot of things go through your mind. During those times. I just tried to focus on the things that I could change and the things I could affect. And put a lot of effort into those and focused on the core of who I was and not just when I couldn’t anymore.<\/p>\n

Bill 22:01
\nYeah, it’s awesome that you decided that what you’re going to do is focus on the things that you can impact and the things you can fix. Because that’s all we can do in stroke. If you can’t walk, or move or talk yet, but you have you, you have your ability to think still in that’s still there, you can put yourself into a space of what can I do.<\/p>\n

Bill 22:23
\nAnd if you can’t move one side of your body, but you can practice mindful meditation to stop you from thinking those dark thoughts, that is a massive thing that you can do to take responsibility for your mental well-being.<\/p>\n

Bill 22:38
\nAnd that might not be something that you can do all the time, but it’s something that you can do when you’re feeling up to it that will put some resources back into your court about how am I going to get through the next day. And we can all do something to support us. When we’re recovering from a stroke.<\/p>\n

Bill 22:53
\nWe can all take responsibility for something because let’s face it, doctors aren’t there to do those things for you, you’re responsible for those, No matter how bad your circumstances are, you’ve got to take that responsibility. I know the doctors are there to patch you up and get you out of there.<\/p>\n

Bill 23:12
\nAnd they do a great job and we live in the best times on the planet for you know, a Western society we get to you know, we get to experience technology, in stroke care, like there’s never been and the chances of recovery are never been better.<\/p>\n

Bill 23:31
\nBut we can’t rely on the doctors and all those other lovely people who help us in the hospital to help us when we leave the house. When we get when we get home and we’ll leave the hospital what other things did you take responsibility for?<\/p>\n

Stroke awareness<\/h3>\n

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\nVince Holland <\/span>23:47
\nMy place in my unit and my community recognize that stroke is something that affects communities because the people that are around you don’t always just like I hadn’t had a lot of experience. stroke, neither have they and so they didn’t know how to help me with invisible things, or how I was feeling emotionally.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>24:05
\nAnd there were times when I got to sit and talk with them. And that was encouraging. And they didn’t treat me like a victim, they treated me like there was some work that I had to do to get back to how I wanted to feel and who I wanted to be.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>24:20
\nAnd that meant some days they could come in and we wouldn’t talk at all like we could just sit and be still and be quiet. And that that helped. Because I didn’t always know how to talk about what I was feeling at the time and how displaced you can you can feel enduring a stroke.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>24:37
\nSo that that was a big thing that taught me about just how much love it takes to be a caretaker for someone during a stroke because you have to work with someone and try your best to be patient when a person could be healing emotionally, and struggling themselves to let you know how to help to tell you how they feel.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>24:55
\nSo that reminded me of being grateful for my community and my family, for my friends, for my caretakers, the nurses at the rehab facility at the hospital, and just being grateful that I had survived trying to remind myself that this could have gone very, very differently as it has for thousands and thousands of people.<\/p>\n

Bill 25:20
\nYeah, absolutely. That thing that you said about your emotions, would you consider yourself somebody who was emotionally intelligent, before the stroke? Did you have any idea? Because if I think back to when I was 28, I had no idea that there was even a thing called emotions. You know? I was such a thick head, you know, I was so blokey. I was so everything would be right. You know, it doesn’t matter. I don’t really yeah, they’re just feelings that don’t mean anything. What were you like, before that?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>25:56
\nI think that I like to say that I was pretty emotionally intelligent, I thought introspection was an important thing to be able to look in at what I was feeling and how much of what I was thinking about the world was real. And how much of it was me projecting something onto what was going on.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>26:12
\nAnd so that was something I never wanted to do was to project my fear onto my already awful situation, and just make it worse. So I took time when I could be still to think I don’t meditate, but there were times I spent time in prayer and just being alone with my thoughts and the questions that I had.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>26:34
\nThat was challenging, but I think that it helped me to try and be introspective to look in to think about how I felt and try and be responsible for those feelings. It was hard to do a lot of times in the questions that I had about myself and if I was going to be okay if I didn’t continue to make progress.<\/p>\n

Bill 27:00
\nYou’re going to be okay with the fact that you may also end up not making any more progress than what you had. It’s a really hard question to ask. But I imagine that at some point, you have to become okay with that. I’m not saying that it’s easy for everybody to do and that it will happen for everybody. But being not okay with something is I see it as potentially being something that’s going to be more harmful to you emotionally long term, than trying to come to terms with something and trying to accept something.<\/p>\n

Acceptance after having a stroke<\/h3>\n

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\nBill 27:35
\nAcceptance is such a big thing in stroke. But I talk about, I talk from my experience of somebody who appears as though I’ve not had a stroke compared to the other people who are sitting in a wheelchair, or pushing themselves around with other aids. So maybe acceptance is one of those buzzwords that you and I can use.<\/p>\n

Bill 28:00
\nBut maybe it’s still part of what we also went through, even though it wasn’t. The outcome doesn’t appear to be as terrible as it has been for other people. I know I talked about that because I had to accept how I feel every day when I wake up every morning, When I wake up, I have to check them, my foot is on the ground and make sure that it sends some feedback to my brain before I get out of bed, because otherwise I’ll fall over.<\/p>\n

Bill 28:24
\nYou know, this thing that’s happened to me, it hasn’t killed me. It makes me look okay, but I wake up with it every day. And it made me think about the people who are in a wheelchair who do need help getting around and independence.<\/p>\n

Bill 28:38
\nI used to look at them before, and I’ve mentioned this on a few other podcasts when I used to look at them before people who were in a wheelchair and stroke was the leading cause of disability. I’m pretty sure around the world. I was like, well, that person, the only thing that they can’t do according to you know, my naive mind was stand up and walk.<\/p>\n

Bill 29:01
\nThey must be experiencing, you know, I didn’t consider they’re experiencing emotional challenges for not being able to walk, work, or get around. I didn’t think that they would have potential problems, you know, with their bowel and their gut I didn’t think that there might be problems with all those other things that people have problems with when they are in a wheelchair.<\/p>\n

Bill 29:23
\nI just thought I couldn’t walk you I was so unaware of all those things. So for me, I think stroke has given me an awareness as well, like you were saying, and I think that’s a good thing that’s come of it like compassion.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>29:42
\nRight? That word you use perspective, I think about that. At times we’re like, something will be going on at work and things get a little bit hectic. And the morning is a little bit rough. And there are periods in our life where I might have just been like all today is awful. But it was just like a crummy morning but the rest of my day is just normal, and I don’t like I’m trying to be better about not being swept up in the trivial things.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>30:06
\nAnd so I do have a little bit more of that perspective. Like I do appreciate that people go through hard things, very, very hard things, and there are emotional burdens to them. And when I think about the hard things that we go through with really heavy emotional burdens, or emotional consequences, social consequences.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>30:23
\nLike if you go through a stroke, and you can no longer drive or you can’t get yourself to work, you lose a bit of a sense of independence. And so that’s a very real consequence. And to me, those things need emotional resources and social resources like these consequences. They gotta have resources to back them up, and to help folks get back to, like, a sense of self and a sense of worthiness.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>30:45
\nLike, It’s challenged relationships professionally, romantically, and just social relationships. And so you kind of want to feel like, you know, I can still be a part of these relationships like I’m still me and I think part of accepting is accepting the good things too like there are people in my life who still had very kind words to say to me when I wasn’t able to do the things that I thought made me who I was like.<\/p>\n

Importance of community in stroke recovery<\/h3>\n

\"\"
\nVince Holland <\/span>30:52
\nLike I didn’t feel strong, but they still cared. And I couldn’t make it to work. But my boss at the time still made an effort to reach out to me,, This matters to me, and it reminds me that community is a big part of recovery.<\/p>\n

Bill 31:25
\nYeah, absolutely. When I got out of the hospital, I realized immediately that my community wasn’t near me initially, of course, it was people did gathered around me and supported me and all that kind of stuff. But then the community was out there so I had to get to them. And for me to get to them, I had to make time. And I had a lot of time so I could get there whenever I wanted.<\/p>\n

Bill 31:47
\nBut then I had to feel well enough to get that. I had to have a good good energy day. I had to have no doctor’s appointment. I had to make sure that people were around when it was convenient for me to be there because I couldn’t get there after work for them or in the evening. After all, I’d be completely drained by that time of the day.<\/p>\n

Bill 32:06
\nSo one of the other things that I was grateful for is the times that we live in. I can connect with you from Melbourne, Australia, and Virginia in the United States. And we can create a community from a distance now, which we weren’t able to create before. And I’m. And I’m also grateful for the fact that I had somebody asked me if I knew any stroke survivors in New York.<\/p>\n

Bill 32:32
\nAnd it was kind of like, why would you be asking me that you live in New York, I imagined that you might know some stroke survivors in New York. Believe it or not, that person experienced a stroke. They’re a little bit isolated. It’s a little bit difficult for them to get around.<\/p>\n

Bill 32:48
\nBut because of this podcast, and because of the way that I’ve put myself out there to meet other survivors to share stories, believe it or not, I’ve interviewed at least three people on the podcast who are from New York City.<\/p>\n

Bill 33:00
\nSomeone reached out to them and said Guys, would you connect with this other person who’s in New York City who has also had a stroke looking to meet stroke survivors They of course said yes, we’d be repped to meet her so, Isn’t it amazing that community, which we thought of before is just being around us that you know was down the road or in our village etc has expanded to such a massive scale.<\/p>\n

Bill 33:27
\nAnd they can be anywhere in the world and we can get in touch with them at a moment’s notice, like you and I see each other apart from feeling and touching each other we can, you know, interact with each other as if we were in the same room.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>33:39
\nSure, yeah. And that’s just one of the things I’m like, when I left, there’s an entire ball of wax open up about going from an inpatient facility where everyone is kind of going through something and going back out into the broader community like a lot of times people don’t talk about the things that they struggle with.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>33:56
\nIn rehab that was super easy to talk about. Like the ice breaker is so are you in a wheelchair or what’s going on, you know, like there is a little bit of anxiety, leaving that space. So it’s his ball of wax. And so I knew I had to seek out folks, the easiest way I could.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>34:13
\nAnd that’s online. There are people all around the world like yourself who are doing great things for the community, putting people in touch with one another and allowing us to share our stories.<\/p>\n

Bill 34:22
\nI think it’s important, that I share my story. in public, I went and spoke immediately. Not immediately, about a year later, I joined a program in Australia where we went and spoke to them to raise awareness about stroke. And that was great for the stroke foundation in Australia.<\/p>\n

Bill 34:38
\nAnd that led to me getting excited about sharing the stories, you know, on the podcast, online, all that kind of thing. And that was amazing. It helps me heal some part of myself as well as hopefully support those other people in their healing journey when they get to express and share their stories.<\/p>\n

Emotional struggle after stroke<\/h3>\n

\"Headache\"
\nBill 34:57
\nAnd helped me with my emotions. It helped me get better at managing my emotions, not that I needed to manage them from occurring, and needed to be comfortable with why I was having emotional mood swings and crying at a moment’s notice. Did you find yourself dealing with emotional mood swings and crying?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>35:21
\nI did like it was weird for me to be so irritable at small things. Like I could look at it and objectively know that it wasn’t very consequential, but at the same time, like I would just be So, so irritated by pretty trivial things.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>35:37
\nAnd it didn’t understand. I mean, I started to suspect like, having a brain injury affects those things. And it’s just like you said, being aware of those emotions, trying to stay and like trying to try to stay in charge of my emotions.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>35:53
\nI can not let it spill over too much on the people around me because I know they’re doing their best and I don’t want it to impact them negatively. I want them to know that I care about them being around. And that’s a very real challenge too.<\/p>\n

Bill 36:10
\nYeah, crying was a big issue for me. Not that I mind crying is a big issue how it made other people feel around me when I was crying. And it was then, okay, I’m going to cry, but also, it’s okay. I’m just crying. It’s alright for me to cry. Don’t worry. There’s nothing wrong. I’m not thinking about anything terrible. Just for some reason I needed to cry. And please be okay with me crying in front of you.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>36:37
\nYeah, and that’s, that’s another important thing in the community is having people who are just okay with you being as expressive as you are. And if you need to cry because you’re sad, or because you’re happy you see something touching this could be like just a small thing that you wouldn’t think we kind of sweep you up emotionally, but then it does.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>36:57
\nI’ve had moments where my music We’ll do something incredible in school and my nephew will tell me about some accomplishment and I just kind of you get that feeling you kind of get welled up with that emotion and I’m like, I don’t remember being this way in my 20s. Like, this is different.<\/p>\n

Bill 37:12
\nBut it’s a good different Isn’t it? Isn’t that amazing to connect with them and be emotional about something amazing that I’ve done? It’s important, we might have missed out on those beautiful moments, you know, so the fact that we can experience those moments, you know, I think it’s such a great thing and, if people are finding it difficult, especially, I know, from my perspective, men, you know, find it difficult to cry and share their emotions like to be okay with it, it doesn’t matter.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>37:46
\nTrue. And it comes with it. Like, it comes with life in general. And that’s the other thing is like when you are going, you’re in recovering from a stroke like you still have to go and deal with the rest of your life. Like the day of my stroke, that was my only focus. And for a few months after that, like it was very, very, my focus was super narrow.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>38:08
\nBut after that, once I returned to work, I had to think about showing up to work on time doing my job, and managing my responsibilities. So it wasn’t just stroke recovery for life is like life multiplied by stroke recovery.<\/p>\n

Bill 38:21
\nYeah. It’s a<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>38:25
\nIt’s a challenging thing. Very, very challenging.<\/p>\n

Bill 38:27
\nHow was the reintegration back into work? Did you find yourself needing to take it easy and, find gentle ways of getting back into your tasks or were you all in it from the very beginning of going back?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>38:40
\nI did, I kind of had like, an on-ramp back to a full workload. I wasn’t working full days even because I just like I do a lot of computer work. And so I couldn’t stare at a computer screen for eight hours every day. So I would just work like a half day and in the beginning I was just so exhausted, like I would like at this point I had learned to drive.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>39:04
\nSo that was awesome. I was excited about that. I would get to work, and work four hours. And even within those four hours, I might take some, like a 15-minute break here, and there. And before I would go home, there were times when I would like to have to take a nap in my car, because I just didn’t want to, like driving is also very taxing.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>39:22
\nAnd I didn’t realize that until I was learning how to drive and thinking about all the little bits of information that you’re taking in when you’re behind the wheel. So in the beginning there was that on ramp, not going full workload yet. But working those modified schedules until I was ready to start taking on a full day.<\/p>\n

Bill 39:39
\nHow long did it take you to get back to work?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>39:43
\nI went back to work in three months. So I don’t think without that the accommodations in place I would have been able to do that because I know for sure that I couldn’t sit for eight hours because the headaches would have just been outrageous.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>39:57
\nSo in about three months. Not quite for, I was able to get back into the office and start to work again. And they were accommodating by allowing my schedule to work with what I could deal with at the time. And then I guess, closing out the year and then going into 2017, I started working on a full course with a full workload, getting back to a not an eight-hour day from there.<\/p>\n

Bill 40:23
\nAnd how is that? How have you noticed that it’s getting better and better for you, as time has passed from those early days of getting back to work? And now where are you now?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>40:36
\nI can work a full load a full day, no problem. For the most part, there are periods where we have training events, or there’s some new skill that I need to pick up at work and I can feel my brain trying way harder, pushing a little bit more and eating up more resources, just trying to take in new info, take good notes at the same time or listen to a webinar and then take notes.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>41:00
\nI can feel certain things, certain tasks require more. And they got to press the gas a little more to get things done. But I can work like it was a routine day. I’m going to go for eight hours now. So that’s cool.<\/p>\n

Bill 41:11
\nYeah, it’s that learning the new things that you haven’t done before that you’re trying to connect to a task that needs to be done. This is how I found that I found it difficult to do new things, like I said, to retain stuff work, but then add a little bit of complication to that routine.<\/p>\n

Bill 41:29
\nAnd you know, how you said you can feel your brain doing things, brains are not supposed to be able to feel stuff because there are no sensory neurons in there. But it does feel like that something feels like it’s going on physically in there.<\/p>\n

Bill 41:43
\nI don’t know if it’s creating new neuronal connections or I don’t know what’s happening, but there is a kinesthetic portion of retraining your brain to learn and to be able to cope with new things.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>41:58
\nRight. It’s like it was your kid and you go into your bedroom and you’re looking for your, favorite toy or this new toy that you bought, and you have to dig through your playthings or whatever you can feel yourself rummaging around, like looking for the resources to get it done.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>42:11
\nYou’re like, Where am I going to pull this from? How do I get to commit this to memory? What am I going to think about to make sure that I retain this new item? And as you said, there’s like a kinesthetic portion. You just you’re aware of it in a very strange way.<\/p>\n

Bill 42:27
\nYeah. So you’re three years out now? Are you back to physical exercise in the gym?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>42:36
\nI am Yes. So getting back to the gym med doing a lot of my outpatient exercises, once I was discharged from outpatient rehab, doing those on my own, and taking that into account and I’ve gotten back to a higher level of activity, but not to the same intensity. I still train with pretty regular frequency, but I don’t train quite as hard for quite as long but I do.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>43:01
\nI like getting in moving around and just feeling what I can do. So, being in the gym is a good thing for me physically for my fitness, but I also like socially to be around people that I care about and to just kind of let it out sometimes you just go in, just get it done.<\/p>\n

Bill 43:18
\nAnd what about your fatigue levels? When you’re in the gym? Do you notice that your energy levels drop off quickly? Or have you been able to get back to a really good level of energy?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>43:31
\nUm, I think maybe like, like my cardio. My endurance isn’t super great right now, but as far as my energy levels, I sometimes have to space my workouts out so that I’m not as fatigued as I can’t, I don’t train back-to-back days very often anymore. So I do sometimes feel that my energy is kind of tapering off or that my focus for whatever I’m doing. There’s like a lot of complexity to it.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>43:57
\nIf it’s some kind of a compound movement. Then, like if I’ve done a few different sets of this exercise, I can feel, my focus will drift. Okay, it’s tough for me to stay engaged in that activity. So that’s something that’s that I have to be aware of in the gym like not pushing it too far was my focus starts to drift.<\/p>\n

Bill 44:20
\nSo you’re back at work, you’re back at the gym, you’re back driving, things are on track. Now everything seems to be getting better, which is awesome. What deficits are you left with? Is there anything that you feel or is visible with you daily that you’re still got?<\/p>\n

Physical and mental deficits caused by stroke<\/h3>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>44:40
\nNothing that I think most folks would see. I think my physical therapist would probably note that. At the end of the day, if I’m exhausted, my gait changes, like my stride is a little bit different. And maybe my left foot, try to drift a little bit. It doesn’t all the way it just doesn’t engage the same way that it did in the morning.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>44:57
\nAnd also, like I’m not as comfortable with my nighttime driving as I was before and I love driving, for, like, if it’s a long trip and my fiance and I are taking a trip, we might switch a little sooner, like I just don’t. I think maybe there is a little more anxiety around it. Because I’m also taking it all the information on it was in the daytime, but these lights like strafing by your eyes over and over, it feels like so much more input.<\/p>\n

Bill 45:22
\nSo you tend to just give yourself enough space to rest and to just not be behind the wheel so that you’re not being impacted so much by all of that information you have to take in. Plus it’s the end of the day, so you’re probably getting low on energy anyway. And the focus is starting to drift. So might as well not be there.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>45:42
\nIf I can help it. Yeah, I keep it to a minimum whenever I can. But I think the other differences that I might have are a bit forgetful at times. So I do try to have memory tools I have reminders and alarms and a calendar like invite things set up.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>46:01
\nSo that’s helped a lot is to try and just manage that a little bit better. And there are times when there are people, whose names I know for sure. I’ve just known them for years. And it just like just (inaudible). Looking at someone who’s like, this is Joe, Is this John? Like, but it’s just not there.<\/p>\n

Bill 46:21
\nYeah, I know, people who haven’t had a stroke will say to me when I do that, well, that’s what we all do. We all do. We all forget people’s names, like type of thing. I know, I used to do that already. But there’s a different level of it. Now. It’s kind of a different version of forgetting. And it’s not forgetting it’s that it’s just not there. The information is not there.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>46:40
\nRight. It’s like, sometimes if you’re just like, you have a normal conversation, there’s a word that’s on the tip of your tongue. No, there is none of that. It’s just not there at all. Like, I can tell them I’m getting exhausted towards the tail end of a week.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span> 46:54
\nIf I am packing my things up in the morning, and I manage to forget my lunch at home. I got to pack my lunch to work. I managed to forget my lunch at home two or three days in a row. Okay? I must be getting a little bit tired. So just like planning things I have to double-check things when I plan them.<\/p>\n

Bill 47:12
\nSo yeah, in Episode 77, I interviewed a neuropsychologist and another lady who had done some work in the psychology area, Kimberley Meates, and Vanessa Bowie. And we spoke about the different types of memory. So if that’s something that people are interested in, they can jump on and have a listen to that episode as well.<\/p>\n

Bill 47:35
\nOr download a PDF of the transcript they can listen to, just to get a bit of an idea of what different types of memory there are, Believe it there are about three or four different versions of memory and we access them in different ways.<\/p>\n

Bill 47:48
\nSome of those things memory tricks are related to creating a kinesthetic portion to remembering something or creating a story in your mind about what something means, or why you’re at a particular place and why certain persons are there.<\/p>\n

Bill 48:06
\nAnd sometimes you can go backward from that place to create that memory. So for example, if you’re in a place and you’ve met somebody, and you’ve forgotten the name, but you one hundred percent know who they are, you can just go, okay, when was the last time I was with this person who was I with as well as this person, and you can create a story around whereas this person appeared in your life who they were with.<\/p>\n

Bill 48:34
\nAnd usually, those little things that you remember about the other situation will bring into your mind, why this other person’s what this other person’s name was, for example, to help you just get back to that name to create another path to remembering who they were. So it’s a fascinating place to remember things after a stroke. I remember I used to have three or four appointments a week at one point in rehab.<\/p>\n

Bill 49:02
\nAnd I think that’s so cool to do people have just had a stroke, try and make them remember, three or four appointments at three or four different places all the time and which one you had to be at? and at what time? Man, it was such a task. And I would forget regularly, I would get the phone call, probably half an hour into my appointment time when I wasn’t even there even thinking about going there.<\/p>\n

Bill 49:27
\nAnd they would send me you on your way. And I’d be like, No, I didn’t know we had an appointment. We sent you out a reminder, we sent you out a text, message, all that stuff. Yeah, let me check my calendar. I even wrote it in my calendar.<\/p>\n

Bill 49:40
\nI haven’t got those reminders but those reminders weren’t enough to make me question that thing that I needed to do and to trigger my mind to say that reminder means that you have to be at a certain place. Just a reminder about something that I couldn’t connect the dots to get to anyway, like, I always missing that last portion of the task, which was to physically understand that that meant I had to get there.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>50:11
\nRight? Yeah, so I took that episode, I do listen to podcasts on the way to work or on the way home at times. So that’s something that I’m interested in because being able to commit something to memory, I need as many tools as I can get.<\/p>\n

Bill 50:25
\nYeah, that’s a fun interview. The girls were amazing in explaining my questions. And I asked those really difficult tough questions that, you know, stroke survivors need to know about memory, you know, things that are weird and different that don’t think about that.<\/p>\n

Bill 50:41
\nI didn’t need to know any of those things before I had a stroke, but I needed to know them now. So it was really good. So I want to talk about moving forward now. What’s the plan here for your three years out? Is there a plan? Are you just taking it day by day tell me about what’s going to happen in the future.<\/p>\n

Plans for the future<\/h3>\n

\"Headache\"
\nVince Holland <\/span>50:59
\nI want to do more sharing my story because I want to connect with people who feel like their story is not mirrored somewhere around them. Because when I did before I had a stroke. I didn’t know there were young folks who had a stroke at the rate that they do. And so I want to be a part of the community that’s speaking about their experiences and letting them see that you can regain some sense of normalcy, and you can feel worthy of the good things in your life, even though you had a stroke.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>51:30
\nIt doesn’t have to. It just doesn’t have to steal your life away, you know. So I want to share more about my story online and in print, and want to get around to speaking in person and getting out and talking to survivors. And making that connection in person. And I’d love to see where that takes me. Just go out to the community and just be both a survivor, but also an ambassador, and an advocate for this community.<\/p>\n

Bill 52:06
\nAs somebody who’s nearly eight years into that part of my process and my goal, and that is an amazing place, it’s going to take the feedback that I get, and just the warmth and the love and the generosity that I get from people who I meet from all over the world.<\/p>\n

Bill 52:22
\nAnd then you know what I said earlier, being able to make connections for people, it’s so rewarding, that I can from 30,000 miles away make a connection for somebody in New York City. It’s just such an amazing thing. And I encourage you to live that dream of yours and to make that happen because you’ll get so much out of it.<\/p>\n

Bill 52:42
\nAnd it’s great that you’re going to get something out of it because that’ll make you want to do more. And you don’t know it, but it is impacting way more people than you can imagine. And I know that some people contact me and say that that’s amazing for the one person that does, there’s probably 50 or 100, you know, that are getting the same out of my podcast episodes than that, as well as that one person who contacted me, but they’re just not contacting me.<\/p>\n

Bill 53:15
\nAnd they didn’t have to. But that’s what they’re getting. I feel like they’ll be getting that kind of need met as well. And when I do get one person to contact me and say thank you for the episode, that makes me want to do it even more, and I can’t stop doing it.<\/p>\n

Bill 53:31
\nI can’t just now stop and stop offering this service, or this. This, what is it this community of mine to the world, it’s just what I was meant to be doing. And I had to get to this point. In this really strange way, by having a stroke and suffering for two or three years and having brain surgery, and struggling and doing all those things. It’s kind of I’ve said it before, and I know a lot of people can’t say this, but it’s kind of one of the best things that happened to me. Looking back after eight years.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>54:06
\nRight, I’ve thought about that a lot. And I was thinking about this today What about the experience that I want to keep? What don’t I want to lose about having had a stroke, I think it’s this community. And I think it’s the reminder that others suffer through things and they persevere. Then they become examples of others as to how they can continue to live with richness and their life. So I want to show some of that to the other survivors who may not feel it right now.<\/p>\n

Bill 54:35
\nYeah, what would be your advice to somebody who’s just come out of hospital or rehab, they’re three or four months in and they’ve got some of the concerns that you have, what would you be advising them right now to just do?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>54:47
\nA support group, like if there are support groups offered either by your healthcare providers or rehab facility near you, or just a support group that’s been put on by survivors in your community then go and connect with those people, like that’s kind of remind you that even as isolating as it feels, it isn’t just happening to you.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>55:07
\nThere’s a way forward, there are people that understand. And having someone there who gets it is enormous. Like the physical things day to day, you’re going to figure out a way to manage those, but the invisible ones, the emotional burdens, and the challenges that make everything else seem so much harder.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>55:24
\nThose I think you’re gonna need to heal from. with others around you. It’s going to be tough to do that in isolation. So I would say seek out that community and get to be a part of a support group. Reach out to fill in the recovery after stroke podcast and share your story.<\/p>\n

Bill 55:40
\nYeah, brilliant, man. Now, one more question before we go. Have you set a date yet?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>55:49
\nThe date for our wedding is May 30th, 2020 and I’m super excited about it. And I’m super grateful that I get to marry my best friend and that’s a cliche thing to say, but she’s been amazing. And if you watch this episode I just wanna say Blaze. I love you very much.<\/p>\n

Bill 56:05
\nThat’s brilliant. Well done. It’s our partners are making it so much better and so much easier to navigate this stroke recovery journey and they owe so much gratitude for hanging around and putting up with us and taking the role of carer and being responsible for us with no training, right?<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>56:27
\nYeah, So like she went through this with me. And we’re both 20-somethings just trying to figure out what just happened. And just having somebody by your side that’s going to be a rocket is super tough because I know she looked at me and she still had so much love but it’s incredibly scary to potentially lose someone that you care for. While they’re still here, you know, they lose so many of the things that they enjoy, and it can be very, very hard on relationships.<\/p>\n

Bill 57:00
\nI know that some people do have relationship breakups after a stroke. I know. Specifically in one of the episodes, early episodes, we spoke about it with my friend, Antonio, Iannella. And Antonio’s relationship ended after he had a stroke. But it was kind of a blessing in disguise. He says, in that, of course, it was difficult to deal with a marriage breakup, after the stroke as well as dealing with a stroke.<\/p>\n

Bill 57:35
\nBut it kind of sounded like and it felt like that. The fact that they weren’t together at that time benefits Antonio so that he could do the healing and the recovery without having the complications of a difficult relationship. And of course, it was tough. It was tough, financially tough, all of those things, and he, you know, didn’t get to spend so much time with his children, and All those things were all tough.<\/p>\n

Bill 58:01
\nBut then he also reflected on the fact that having the time away from his children because they had shared custody, and they’re able to be half the week with dad and half the week with mom, and they were nearby meant that, that half the week when Antonio was on his own, so to speak, he was able to recharge his batteries and feel better so that when he got to be with his children, he was able to have a lot of time with them because they were young, and they needed that around and they needed to be energetic and all those things.<\/p>\n

Bill 58:33
\nSo he was able to see the positive side of that marriage breakup, although it was difficult, and he and his former wife are on really good terms now, Even though it was difficult, he did get a lot of benefits out of not being in that tough, challenging part of the relationship. Imagine being in dealing with a tough relationship as well as trying to recover from a stroke would be so tough for people.<\/p>\n

Bill 59:00
\nSo um, sometimes things that happened that appear bad at the time, end up being a blessing you just haven’t realized that yet, or enough time has lapsed. For you to learn the lesson that you needed to learn.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>59:16
\nThat’s the truth. And there are so many times where I look at the struggle and I say to myself, there is something good on the other side of it, and for everything that I had to pay for all of the suffering and the strife like I’m going to get every good thing that this has to give me.<\/p>\n

Bill 59:30
\nThat’s a great way to end the podcast. Vince, thank you so much for being on the podcast.<\/p>\n

Vince Holland <\/span>59:34
\nAppreciate that so much. Thank you.<\/p>\n

Intro 59:36
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